I just wanted to take some time to say thank you. A few months ago I posted Part 1 of my story. I revealed a part of my life I had kept hidden from everyone; my only hope was that by sharing I would help others, I would show them my nightmare and make it our own, I would remind them that they are not alone in the dark, we are all running to find our light together. Not only was I blown away by the response (As I was absolutely horrified to publish it) The response I continue to get warms me so much. I still receive messages daily from other sufferers, family, partners, nurses and carers, sending their love, sharing their demons with me and holding their hand out to walk with me. *cries*
Thank you, for supporting me, my work and all that I am. Thank you for writing to me and sharing parts of your life you could share with no other. Thank you for being you, as it is you that makes me smile. But most of all.. Thank you for loving me, even when I could not love myself.
I love you all so much, my filthy, fly little fuckers. I will always walk beside you. So walk with me, I’m Kazumi
What kind of skin care do you use? Do you have a routine? Long story short: my skin isn't coping with my body being malnourished. I have breakouts every day and it's making my self esteem crash even more.
I’m sorry to hear this, I know how much it effects your self esteem. On new medications my skin has been going crazy and you are right, it is a compete downer on an already not so nice situation. I started doing heat masks every 2 days once a day on top of my normal routine twice a day (cleanse, scrub and tone) and I found it made a big difference for me. I also started juicing and having one daily (wheat grass, ginger, whole heap of vitamins, fruits and veg etc) Not only have I noticed a whole change in my body, my skin is glowing. I still get an occasional break out, but these 2 things have really helped with my skin. I wish you all the best and hope this helps.
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Just had to cancel my MM account after being scammed. Ladies steer away from Azelle - Rose City Empire. It’s all a scam, how I got to be a part of it I don’t know, but I will be making another Model Mayhem account in the next few days.
Hey, I messaged you a while ago - I'm the girl who also has DID. Your response was beautiful! I wish so badly I could come off anon, but I'm so anxious about my privacy regarding my mental issues and other identities. I feel I'd be betraying them. I look up to you a lot. I met you in a therapy group years ago, and always thought you are amazing and beautiful. Before your post on fb, I never thought I'd be able to work, or have relationships or live. Thank you so much. Keep marching! <333
So, so beautiful. You do not need to come off anon, I completely understand and want you to do whatever you are comfortable with. We have met? Amazing <3 You are capable of absolutely anything and I only wish in this life you are given your everything. I am so touched to know I have helped you see that, I only hope I can continue too :) Thank you so much for taking the time to write to me again, you are a gem and have an incredibly gentle soul.
I go for a 20 minute walk everyday, but I wouldn’t necessarily call it working out.
I have been having problems with eating for the past two years. I suffer from BPD and some people with borderline personality disorder have a greater prevalence of eating disorders than people in the general population. In the past year I had lost 27kg - by restricting, purging and becoming completely obsessed with my weight (which I had never experienced before) I was admitted into an eating disorder ward earlier this year where I worked towards maintaining a stable weight, without the urges to restrict or purge. I still battle with my weight and am incredibly self conscious (although it may seem I am not) - I am. I am not healthily thin, but I am working incredibly hard to put the weight on so I am considered a ‘healthy weight’
The best advice I can give it to graze. Have 6 small meals a day and try going for a short walk everyday. I also found writing a meal plan/routine for my eating very helpful.