KAZUMI

"I am a very private person, yet I am an open book.
If you don’t ask…I won’t tell."
— (via haileymr)



"Do you know what I need? To escape into the mountains, surrounded by tall trees, I will lay on the moss, and breath in the scent of mushrooms, flowers and wet soil."
L’échappée” by Les Discrets (via natural-magics)

"We both look at the same stars, yet we see such different things."
— Stargazing (via timid)

mpdx04 asked: "Hi Kazumi, I so admire your openness about mental health. I have been in my own mental health battle for years, but am at the bottom of the roller coaster right now. How do you make it through the days when it seems like there is no light at the end of the tunnel, or if there is it is so small and far away that getting there feels impossible?"

Hello gorgeous, thank you so much for writing to me and opening up - I know how hard that can be, so good on you!

I’m so sorry to hear of your struggles, it’s times like these I wish I had a magic wand to take it all away.

I wish I knew what it is that kicks me up when I’m on the floor - at times I hate it and just want to drown, but I am here and in the end always grateful for it.

It’s taken me years to be able to find things in which helps to ground me and all in all - feel alive in a way that doesn’t inflict pain onto myself. It depends on what state of mind I am in but without a doubt, writing is my biggest release and I encourage anyone to just try to confide in a piece of paper and pen. Since revealing and becoming so open about my illness’s I’ve found speaking about it really does help me. For so long I isolated myself from opening up as it usually always made it worse - (no one understood me, my actions or what is was exactly that was going through my head etc) but it wasn’t until sharing my story where I was open to a world of souls who were walking a similar path to me, who have and continue to endure a fight - I found anything I could relate too, gave me a new found sense of comfort and release. The biggest realization was that I wasn’t alone. There were other people, who unfortunately were suffering - but we were brought together by a raw bond. I’m so grateful for all the beautiful angels who have followed my story, and found comfort, familiarity and strength in something they thought they were completely alone. I hope I can continue to give you comfort in your hard times. ❤️

Regardless, I made my own light. There are times, too often where I am convinced it isn’t there, that it is now impossible for it to even exist and that maybe this time there will be no light at the end. I got my lantern with my forever burning flame tattooed on my neck. The separation of my body and mind broken up by something beautiful - I always look at my lantern, I know I got it tattooed at a point in my life where there was nothing, where I thought I was on my last legs and I would no longer be able to stand. I some how made my own light when I could find no other and I guess I always know it can be there, sometimes I just have to think more so outside the box to make it for myself.

For so long though; when these dark times came I would try everything I could to fight it off, to not feel it nor experience it - which inevitably made it worse. I was judging not only myself but my emotions, so I allowed myself to feel and I didn’t fight and although i thought it nearly killed me; it passed and it always will. No emotion is permanent. ❤️

I spend a lot of time outside in nature, learning all the small things in this world I appreciate that are so beautiful. I hate the world when I am down, I loathe everything in it and want nothing to do with it or be apart of it - so this just helps me realise that there are so many beautiful, magical things in this world, galaxy and universe - as with our light, strength and happiness, sometimes we just need to walk a little further and look deeper to see it’s there.

I’m sorry for this long message. I hope this helps and please know you can always come to me. You’re not alone and always remember that it’s okay to not be okay ❤️

All my love, light and strength to you gorgeous, you can do this x

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"I didn’t realize it, but the days came along one after another, and then two years were gone, and everything was gone, and I was gone."
— F. Scott Fitzgerald, Babylon Revisted (via japan-overload)

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